5,4,3,2,1,0.

No one can stop me to go

mccain isn't leading.

they're following. and they're following obama. it's absurdly pathetic.

i understand now how republicans felt when gore and kerry were trying to keep up with bush. especially kerry with the "reporting for duty" bullshit and that hunting debacle.

but you can just look at these two candidates' websites. that's it. you can just tell who has at least hired better people. it's a telling thing. it's not everything, but it definitely shows a weakness and a vulnerability in the mccain campaign. in my opinion.

clinton was guilty of it too. co-opting yes we can and bastardizing it into yes she can. which is just stomach-turning and really explains her entire campaign as truly being rooted in feminist entitlement. whereas obama's is more socialist potential.

but mccain coming out with "a leader we can believe in" ? dude. that's just awful. i know it's not him, and i honestly respect him and i believe that he is, maybe was, an intelligent, articulate maverick war-hero, but he does not fit into his campaign simply because of that.

you can look at gore and kerry as examples of smart men being taken over by shitty campaign managers and blowing it. it worked with bush because his brain was fried, so he was automatically a better puppet.

obama though, seems to be wielding executive power in his campaign far, far better than any candidate since bill clinton. i guess dean was doing pretty well but then the msm fucked him

Submerged, Renewed

She knows why the caged bird sings, but I never will:
Perhaps gone is our freedom.
Perhaps gone is our trust.
Perhaps not forever.
We can retrieve them.
They have been locked away and hidden.
In castles.
But we can retrieve them.
Rescue our trust and freedom.

What we have become, is disconnected.
In our hurry to become more and more connected, we lost real tangibility.
We need that back, and we need it back fast.
I think "Don't talk to strangers" has fucked up a lot for my generation. We have no excuse to not fix everything. We have the technology, we have the ability. We just need to cooperate.

All matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration. So what if we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively? What if there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves?

I think it's a possibility.

I'm being watched.

The Angry Earth

I beat The Huffington Post to this by 6 hours or so.

And we both forgot the Volcano in Chile ten days ago. 4,000 displaced, environmental degradation, economy dive, ash all over crops.

Clearly, something is wrong.

What has happened in the past two-weeks:

In Asia:
Half of Yangon got swept away and their corrupt ass government won't do shit about the 100,000 corpses or millions displaced.
The center of China just got hit with a 7.8 earthquake and at least 100 people are dead and over 1000 buried. Guaranteed those numbers skyrocket in 72 hours. Especially considering bad publicity is bad for the Olympics, and China is notorious for media manipulation.
There have been rampant suicides in Japan because of a recipe involving detergent and house-hold chemicals that spread across the internet, guaranteeing "a peaceful death."

In the Middle-East:
Beirut's blowing itself up and at least 40 people have been killed.
A Palestinian teacher was "accidentally" murdered by Israel and tensions are rising there again.
The Iraqi green zone got hit by rockets for the first time and four civilians were killed and coalition casualties seem to be on the rise again.

Domestically:
Tornadoes across the Mid-west with at least 30 dead and hundreds injured, thousands displaced.
Wildfires across central Florida that necessitated emergency evacs.
The U.S. economy is constantly taking precipitous dive cycles and all this shit won't help.

What Else?
Nobody reads this silly thing so I don't think I'll get arrested for conspiracy, but wouldn't the capper to all this be Obama getting assassinated and riots breaking out in L.A., Chicago and New York? I'm an ardent supporter, voted for him in the California primary. But I'm goddamn terrified right now.

Depressive people get desperate when it looks like the world is going to shit. And right now, the planet is wallowing in it. Don't believe me? Check out 1968.

The birth and the death of the day.

All of a sudden I miss everyone.

Amour, Imagination, Rêve

Nicolas Godin and Jean-Benoît Dunckel.

thanks guys.

Alone in Kyoto

This blog: It's all over the place. My perspective is clouded maybe. But, I know that it just makes me that much more depressed. It's not a problem of coherency. It's just demoralizing when I can no longer agree with myself on statements I made less than a month ago. Precarious portents perhaps. It just gets me worried. What was honest to me once, is no longer.

I'm not excited anymore.

I've been in restaurants on the other side of the world, and somebody works there everyday. Why is that weird to me now? It's all too vast. When I was younger I wanted to see it all. Now I just want to retreat. It's intimidating, and I don't see myself making it all any better.

Surfin on a Rocket

Listen:
It all comes down to personal definitions of Good and Evil.
In my opinion, for example, fundamentalist Mormon polygamists who fuck fourteen years olds are Evil. But to them, it gets them closer to their God. I, however, have law, common sense and moral decency on my side. Thankfully, that's more powerful than their religion. Theirs is no more crazier than any of the other ones, just more offensive now. Next up (with any luck) Catholicism. That's beside the point really. But whatever.

Look:
Gandhi had some cool ideas but he also had some fucking weird ones. His rejection of modernity is not necessarily hypocritical. In fact, his decisions to live the way he did are much more powerful if they are informed, as they were, by his life as a lawyer and scholar in London. His perspective gains momentum simply by having lived the life he now so fervently rails against. He was a revolutionary and a glorious one, having avoided spilling blood and that's not anything anyone can argue against. What we can argue against, and what we should argue against is his belief as I understand it, that India should wholly reject Britain. I can understand that he's angry, but passion should not negate rationality. If he was being an extremist simply for the sake of being extreme than he wasn't being honest to his principles. He was an extraordinarily intelligent man and I reject the notion that he believed Britain and her influence could be dissolved from India. I cannot and will not agree with the idea that we should all be weavers. I'm sincerely glad that we have antiseptics and anesthesia now. That's progress and that's modernity and yes, it's Western, but so fucking what, last time I checked we're on one little round planet. It makes no difference where it came from or for that matter where our parents fucked (which is my argument against patriotism in general) Gandhi certainly expedited a free India, but you're kidding yourself if you think it wasn't gonna happen eventually. We can either be conservative or progressive, and as much as Gandhi's personal philosophies of pacifism seemed to be progressive his other philosophies regarding the practices and traditions of his fellow Indians is intensely conservative. That is the conflation of his contradictory views.

We hold the concept that modern life is the best life because it simply is. As we define knowledge, we now have the most of it. We have the most access to that knowledge than we ever have. If equality and social justice could be somehow quantified, the numbers now would be higher than ever. And Photosynthesis is real because it's testable. Repeatedly. The parameters for our interpretation of evidence are fulfilled by experimentation. Which is why I reject the idea of a God controlling everything, and why the majority of rational thinkers do too.

So:
If you want to go live in a forest in a log cabin and read, go do it. Ted Kaczynski did. Nobody stopped him till he started blowing people up.

Research Topic Ideas

1) Napster, Limewire, BitTorrent and the effects of Internet piracy on the morality of my generation.
2) The MPAA and why the American audience prefers violence over sexuality in their mainstream films.

Top 5 Favorite 21st Century Albums.

High Fidelity style

Discovery, Daft Punk (2001)
Talkie Walkie, Air (2004)
Demon Days, Gorillaz (2005)
St. Elsewhere, Gnarls Barkley (2006)
In Rainbows, Radiohead (2007)

Bukowski was wrong.

So I'm 17 pages into a screenplay. I've decided it's what I want to do for a living. It's the one thing that I really actively want to be extraordinary at. I want to be good at a lot of things, perhaps great at a few and at least mediocre at most, but I think I can only be truly extraordinary at one thing.

And that's the key. For all of it. You find what you want to be extraordinary at and you pursue it like your life depends on it. Because it does. As far as I know, you only get one life. So make it mean something. Nobody will do it for you, nobody can.

I'm not religious, but I know when I'm blessed. I realize how fortunate I am to live in this country and to have all of these opportunities. I have to make the most of it, I owe it to those who can't.

I have fears though. I'm afraid I've already wasted too much time, afraid that I've made the wrong decisions. But I have to mute those fears. I'm doing what I'm doing because that's who I am. I've done well.

Suddenly, I feel like I have it all figured out.

The scary thing is, what if I do?

What if it works?

wish me luck.